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SPRING, 2013

LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA

It should have been me.

Not Lisa.

And not my girls, that’s for damn sure.

And not anyone else, not when you take a hard look at it. It was me they targeted. Me they wanted. It’s me they’ve always wanted. But they couldn’t touch me. So they reached for the ones they could get. And I let them walk right into it.

I wanted Lisa and the girls to fly on a private jet with bodyguards sitting in front and back and another team waiting on the ground. That was the way it was meant to happen. That’s the way it would have happened if I had held firm. But I let myself be talked out of it.

Lisa didn’t want our three kids raised in a bubble. She wanted them to grow up as normal kids leading normal lives--or as normal as they could be when you consider who I am and what I do.She had always wanted that—a normal life. We both knew going in that normal was never going to be easy, not with me around. You want safe and secure, move to a small town and marry the local grocer. But when you fall in love with a guy like me, the unthinkable comes with the vows.

I am a cautious man.

I don’t trust strangers, am uneasy in large gatherings—from weddings to concerts to dinner parties of more than ten—and travel with a discreet security detail close enough to take action if the need arises. I have a carry permit and never venture out minus at least one loaded weapon. I don’t adhere to a regular schedule, instead I vary everything--from workouts to the times I eat my meals to the routes I take to work sites and meetings. I am not troubled by any of these habits and, in truth, I derive comfort from knowing I’m in control of my surroundings. It allows me freedom and enables me to focus on the tasks I need to accomplish.

These habits help me excel at what I do. But they do not make me an ideal husband or father. I imposed these restrictions on my family and while I see them as a necessary precaution, they chafed at their existence. My wife detested any security outside of a home alarm. The kids wanted to be able to have sleep-overs minus background checks, go to parks and outdoor events without being in the company of armed men who made their presence known. The resentment was a cause for friction.

“Why can’t we, just this one time, go on vacation like everyone else?” Lisa had asked me.

“We are going on a vacation like everyone else,” I said. “Does it really matter how we get there?”

“The kids are not going to live your life when they grow up, Vincent,” Lisa said. “They’ll be out there on their own. The sooner they see what that’s like, the better it will be for them. And as I recall, you went to Italy when you were a teenager and you went alone.”

“Not exactly,” I said. “But I get your point.”

“We’ve never traveled as a family,” Lisa said. “I don’t think our kids have even seen the inside of an airport.”

“They’re not missing much,” I said. “Long lines, bad food, lost luggage. Am I leaving anything out?”

“I’m serious, Vincent,” Lisa said, reaching for my hand and holding it gently against her side. “Let them be kids, just this once. They’re so excited about this trip. I am, too.”

“If I get on that plane,” I said, “it might as well be a private jet. First class will be me, you, the kids and our bodyguards.”

“Then don’t get on the plane,” Lisa said. “I’ll go with the girls and you follow us later with Jack. You still have that real estate deal to close, right?”

I felt the argument sliding away. “That’s right,” I said.

“Get that off your plate and then you and Jack can meet us in New York,” Lisa said. “Give the two of you some time together.”

“It doesn’t feel right to me, Lisa,” I said. “At least not now. In a few years, maybe then might be a better time.”

“You said you wanted a normal life for them,” Lisa said. “Did you really mean that or were they just words?”

“I meant it,” I said. “I don’t want them to be like me in any way.”

“Then normal needs to start right now,” Lisa said. “With this trip.”

I pulled Lisa close to me and held her in my arms. “I love you,” I said. “And I’ll do anything not to lose you or the kids.”

 “I love you even more,” she whispered in my ear. “And always will.”

So, going against my nature and judgment, I agreed to allow some air into my hermetically sealed world. For my kids and for Lisa. They wanted a taste of what passes for normal life, to move about freely, not be confined by my rules. And I went along with it, deluding myself into thinking that they would still be safe, they would still be there for me to hold them close.

That no harm would come to them.

That I was the only target of interest.

It was a move that should never have been made. I allowed my love for family to obscure my distrust of the world. I put them out there without the protection they needed, the safeguards required. I let them go. And I will never forgive myself for that.

My name is Vincent Marelli and I own your life.

I know you’ve never met me, and if you are lucky you never will. The chances are better than even you’ve never heard of me, but in more ways than you could think of, I own a piece of you. Of everything you do. I don’t care where you live or what you do, a percentage of your money finds its way into the pockets of the men I lead. We are everywhere, touch everything and everyone, and always turn a profit. And once we’ve squeezed every nickel we can out of you, we toss you aside and never bother giving you a second thought.

You lay down a bet at a local casino or with the bookie in the next cubicle, we get a cut. You take the family on that long-planned vacation, a large chunk of the cash you spend--highway tolls, hotel meals, the rides you put your kids on—finds its way into our pockets. You smoke, we earn. You drink, we earn more. Buy a house, fly to Europe, lease a car, mail your mother a birthday present, we make money on it. Hell, the day you’re born and the day you’re buried are both days we cash out on you.

And you’ll never know how we do it.

That’s our secret.

We’re never in the headlines. Oh, you’ll read about some busts and see a bunch of overweight guys in torn sweatshirts with tabloids folded over their heads do a perp walk for the nightly news, but that’s not us. Those rodeo clowns are the ones we want you to think we are. Those are the faces that get Page One attention, headline trials and triple-decade prison sentences. We have thousands of guys like that and we toss them into the water any time Federal or local badges need to make a splash, make the public think they’re out there serving and protecting.

We remain untouched.

At least, we did. Until this happened.